lonely

Today was a GREAT day. I really can't remember the last time I had such an amazing day. I woke up early, looked outside and saw the sun shinning so I went for a run. Not a long run, but a run that let me enjoy the fresh air in the morning. I had one lecture which made me realize how much I miss school back home...I miss actually learning something (call me crazy if you must).

After that Katie and I went into town and had a blast. I thought lunch would take about a half hour, but they forgot to bring us our dessert, and after an hour (yes, an hour) and two trips to tell someone about it, we finally got our hour old apple tart with custard. We left 'The Moon' with tears in our eyes because we were laughing so hard...and proceeded to go shopping.

I walked away with a fantastic cup of coffee, a new purple skirt, white top and beads, all for under 20pounds!!!! Came home and read a couple great emails from home and then went to Legs, Bums and Tums at the gym. I thought I was going to die, but I stuck through it and felt wonderful afterwards. Then I made dinner - stuffed peppers. I was really proud of myself fof that!! After dinner I went to CU and hung out with people there for awhile and then came back home...

But here I am, after one of the best days I've had since I've been out here, and I'm sad for some reason. There is no reason for this feeling - I have awesome friends out here and I'm happy!! But I just have this huge urge to start crying, for absolutely not paticular reason. I hate doing this, but I'm going to blame it on PMS - yes, I'm taking the easy girly way out. There are a thousand things on my mind and all of them include me wanting to be home at this very moment..

It's nights like tonight that reminds me of eating at Chope's with the girls in Las Cruces, or hanging out at a park with friends in Albuquerque, just talking the night away. I want to smoke hookah at the new place downtown and I want to be 21 in the states and go to the bars with my friends! I want to drive my car on the 'RIGHT' side of the road. I want to see my family, who I've been missing VERY much the past few months.

I know I'm being selfish, but you're allowed to do that when you're homesick. This will pass, most likely by the time I wake up and see the sun shinning again, but I needed to vent and maybe have some encouragement - for any of you who actually read this far. This post will be deleted when I no longer feel this way...