just breathe

Just breathe...
Current mood: excited
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

..You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does..." ~Tom Petty

Whew. T-minus a few days and I will be finished with school forever. The last few posts have been very optimistic and happy, in other words, I don't think the fact that graduating had hit me. Well, you'll all be happy to know that while I was walking to class on Wednesday it hit me. After 18 years of knowing how to "do" school, I will have to find something else to do with my life. I have my internship at Albuquerque the Magazine, but I'm going to need another job, or two, in order to make some money. Basically it's going to be like a summer or winter break that never ends... minus the comfort zone of my family in Las Cruces.

Earlier this week Laura, Natalie, Jenna, Emily and I all drove to a concert in Tucson. This was just a random Monday night and we ended up taking off part of Tuesday from school. Will I still be able to do this once I have a "real" job? Probably not. It will also be ridiculously strange to not have all of my friends over at my house until 3 am - as it happens so often over here! Or weird for it to be Laura and I at dinner or happy hour and in a matter of minutes have a pretty large group of our friends gathered around us. I'm going to miss having parties within walking distcance to my house.

That's what I'll miss. I'm not sad to graduate - per say - just a little bit anxious about this next step in my life.

I think i've done a pretty damn good job of not over analyzing what's in store for me and just enjoying every minute that I have down here. There are still some pretty sweet days in store for us Las Cruces crew...even up in Albuquerque (Ginnie and Josh's wedding, New Year's Eve, Matt and Raina's wedding). ...Not to mention the fact that Las Cruces isn't going anywhere and as long as I still have friends down here I will drive the 3 hours down here on occasional weekends =)

With that said...I have to go meet up with some friends for dinner and a movie!